Teech Airil sez – These two poems from 1998 mean a lot to me (of course). The first is really about my own mother after i thought long and hard about why we sometimes disagree with each other, well, most times at that time in my life really. The second is about my great grandmother who has since passed away, inspired by my idle chats with her before i left for the UK and the few years after, during my summer holidays. She passed away when i was still doing my degree. Al-Fatihah…
I’ve always had a soft spot for the many strong and wonderful women in my life, and my own mother, grandmother, great grandmother and mom-in-law are on top of the list!
I Hate My Mother
I hate my Mother because
I have too much of her in me
Every thought I think
is my Mother’s
Every feeling I feel
is my Mother’s
Every tear I cry
is my Mother’s
Every smile I carve
is my Mother’s
My memories
were sieved through Her
I am borrowed
from Her
I hate my Mother because
One day she’ll leave me
The Grand Dame
the years are etched upon Her face
layer upon layers of smiles and tears
each line, each blemish
one story of her life
She sits by the creaking door
looking out into that that was once
deep green grass and clear blue skies
She sees nothing but blurred whiteness
She says
a few moving mis-shapes and lines
Her walks has returned to crawls
She wets Her bed
and forgets
lest She remembers
and be sad
upon each second
each minute
each hour
Death is certain
and is near
Aug 20, 2008 @ 15:59:14
I had a mother who sang me songs Of distance lands and Chinese gongs. Sad Poems
Nov 09, 2008 @ 20:43:37
i just can’t forget “i hate my mother” since the very 1st time i heard it n guess what it was about 5 0r 6 years ago… =)
May 06, 2010 @ 19:52:00
‘I hate my mother because one day she’ll leave me’ this 25th of May .. is going to full year without my mother.
I hate my mother
coz she is not here to hold me
I hate my mother
coz she made me missed her like crazy
I hate my mother
coz she never said goodbyes
I hate my mother
coz I could never hear her voice calling my nama
I hate my mother
coz when i walk out frm DSeriBudiman she is not there to hug me n kiss me
I hate my mother
coz thinking of her makes me cry
I hate my mother
coz she makes me longs for her
I hate my mother
coz I love her more than myself
I hate my mother
coz I need her now than ever
I hate my mother
coz she is no longer calling me, scolding me, make fun of me, being proud of me, telling ppl Im her daughter, telling to go to my classes, pointing out things for me, teaching me, guiding me ……. and to touch my head saying that I m the best thing that ever happen to her.
No matter how much the disagreement, the ‘hate’, the yelling, the screaming, the shouting, ear pulling, belling twisting, … it all comes back to mom. Bad words come from mom, does not come from the heart. she makes us thinks is from the heart.. but deep down inside.. you are her child. No one understands their mother.. not until she is gone for good. Only the your heart starts to fell pain… a part of you is gone with her. For those who still have their moms.. dont wait to say you sorry and tell them you love them. you never know .. if tomorrow is her or your last day.
May 06, 2010 @ 20:07:32
I hate the words,
I hate my Mother because One day she’ll leave me
I hate it!
May 06, 2010 @ 20:14:00
thanx teech airil for sharing
happy mother’s day :’D
May 07, 2010 @ 07:05:58
oh mak….i miss my mak so much……
thanks for the poems ……truly from pn.nurul student……she being like a mother to us…thanks puan….